A LETTER TO MYSELF...

Hey Girl!

Where you been? It's been a minute since I seen you last. I heard you were still down in VA doing your thing. That's what's up. I miss you soooo much. We haven't kicked it in DUMB long. I missed those days where you and I would just bug out for no @#$K%^& reason at all! It's hard to find someone with the same edge as you. Chillin' doesn't even have the same meaning since you left. SMH

Our adventures around the city gave us memories we will never forget! Shout out to your father for being a bus driver! We had mad student bus tickets on deck! LOL We used to laugh at all the people that would hop on the bus. Especially the 39 bus oh my gaaaah! You ain't know who was gonna come up on that joint. Especially in the summer of '04. Sheeesh. We knew we were in for a show on any bus we caught during that summer. We use to catch either the 39 or 13 downtown and hop the trains to go to NY. LOL We almost got caught that one time! LOL But we were too smooth to lose. The train doors closed and pulled off at perfect timing. That cop was mad as hell! LOL

I'm glad you brought me with you when you went to college. I seen some things I would have never seen in Newark. But them people down in Virginia were just happy for NO reason at all. Smiling and waving and shit. Just too damn happy for me. You soften up too! LOL Cause you started smiling and waving back. SMH. Its cool though. I guess if you were gonna be down there for the next 4 years, you had to adapt to your surroundings.

You let me get down with your crew at VSU. I mean, I was never too keen on being with a clique but they was cool as hell. They took me in right along with you. Even though I was wild LOL. I know I slipped up a few times, but I couldn't help it though! You know me! If a nigga just look at me wrong, I'm wyling!! Don't front. You were the same way too! But you allowed them to humble you. You became much more reserved. That's when I started to see you change.

I mean, don't get me wrong. I love the person you have become. In fact, I wish I could be like you in so many ways. But I refuse to change. I let you be the humble you and I just smack these birds for you. No biggie. We been together since birth, I would never turn my back on you...like how you did me.

No love lost but you used to be so tough! You used to ROCK OUT! I never knew another chick that was as hard as you. Everybody thought Eve was the pit bull in a skirt til they met you. What happened to you? Matter fact, the last time I seen you was back in 07 at the Cotton Club. We was putting b!@#$e% down that night! LOL

I know you still feel me in you. But you keep suppressing me, like I ain't shit. Like I wasn't the one rocking out with you the past 25 years. Now you all calm. Living in 2-story lofts & shit. You work for that Fortune 500 company on salary with full benefits, now you act like you don't need me anymore! What's up with that? I thought you was coming home after you got your degree? I thought we were gonna go back to hopping trains & shit? You traded your J's & basketball shorts for 6-inch heels and a tight skirt!

I guess you all grown up now. I thought I'd never see the day you would leave me behind. But I'm still riding with you though. Like them country niggaz say out in Virginia "bah-lee dat". LOL I love you regardless of who you become. And just in case I never get a chance to tell you, I'm proud of you. Keep doing ya thing. But if you need me...well you know where I'm at.

Always in your heart,
The Old You





Signing Off
Excuse My Kharisma ♥

(c) Copyrighted 04/26/11